Thanks for your invaluable accounts and insights, Forum Blogger. I will keep those things in mind. I'm glad I found this forum. More power to you folks out there who wants to quit.
I just wanted to write and let everyone know that I left my boyfriend yesterday. He has made it abundantly clear that he does not want to quit for me. He said the best he could do was not smoke around me. I dont want my unborn children to grow up with a father like this. I told him about my dad who was an alcoholic and all the nasty things he used to do. I am not only doing this for myself and my self esteem, but for the sake of my potential family's future.
It is very hard to love an addict of any kind, and I am slowly realizing that I can no longer love him, even though I always will. I feel like I never really knew who my boyfriend was anyway. And thats not someone you want to marry and be intimate with. I recommend the book codependence no more. It is helping me realize that pot is HIS problem, not mine, and by removing myself from the situation, I have reclaimed my life and my emotions. The rest of his fate is up to him.